homesickness..

sometimes i think, i just think too much. thus leading me into remembring old memories that both have been good and bad and getting nostalgic about them. thinking about them just makes me sad. I would go through the what ifs, the what could have been and what i can still do. reminising indeed makes me wonder if i really did learn from the experiences and the i had encountered. did i really?
after almost 5 years of being away from home, i think i should be use to this feeling. but everytime this feeling sinks in, the feeling feels new. there would be some new details that i would remember or some new nostalgic feeling would come over me. How funny when the last time i thought being in Beijing didnt even make me feel lonely compared to being in manila. ecpecially since most of the people here that i know are like me, we served each other's loneliness. but when that feeling hits you, you got no choice but to face everything alone, the memories, the sadness, the regrets , the pain and the happiness. man is indeed a solitary being.